FRIM Canopy Walkway

A little adventure in FRIM, Kepong Being with nature is one of the best therapy. It's the environment that affect our sensory, trigger our emotion, build our stamina and character. And FRIM, Kepong is one of the best place so far as it is safe for kids. We tried the canopy walkway when the trek leading to the check point was still free to enter without any guide. It was about 30 minutes hike from the trail head, considered as easy trek but the trek is not bad, many types of trees and shrubs along the way, clear path but can be slippery after the rain.

This was taken along the trek and at the starting point.

Gambar ni before pokok tumbang dan terkena canopy walkway ni..lepas pokok tumbang, walkway ni tutup for few months..now its open but u need to hire guide. Will definitely come again. Cheers -Sue-

Almost towards the end

Hello.. helloo...anybody homeee... Its been so long. But not forgotten. Been very busy with many things. Cheers Sue

Like a snail...

It,'s been more than 3 weeks of Ramadhan but i feel like i did not really full fill the requirement and what not. Been sick and the whole house had viral fever for a week. Tarawikh was not like last year. So sad that it ended this way. Meanwhile for my PhD progress, it's also a very slow progress..sigh.. Caught up with many things.

Road trip June 2015

Our road trip started on thev2nd june from BB Bangi.

Perkara paling best bila road trip ni adalah driving tengok tempat orang, singgah makan dan discover new unexpected things, especially di tempat yang tak popular macam kampong-kampong yang ada rumah-rumah tradisi, gerai makan sedap yang belum viral dan lain-lain.

Slow moving journey

I did not realize that i abandoned this blog since last year. I thought that i already updated something here. And now with this challenge to revive blogging, i shall start writing again together with writing my thesis. My PhD progress is a bit slow. Doing part time is ain't an easy task, I try to allocate few hours for reading and at least one hour for writing but always carried away with other tasks. My next report submission is end of this month and i just revised my research scope and need to redo my framework. Indeed, PhD is a lonely journey but i have friends who just graduated and family support. After all life is about depending on HIM.

Progress

Its been three months since I registered as PG at UTM, and the progress is considered slow according to my benchmark. There are times that I need to sit down and flip through books and google about many things esp terminology and terms in research. Even simple words to some like construct, hypothesis, standard deviation, correlation, conceptual framework, theoretical framework..for me, I still need to understand all these before I proceed with Literature Review. These are the foundation and its okay to walk slowly than just wait and see..

Doing PhD is not an easy journey, there are so many obstacle to face especially when it is part time mode. We need to juggle between family, work and research. Sometimes questions like "am i doing the right thing?", "why i do phd" etc will emerge. But we have to face it..

Remembering

It's been a year now ..and I can still remember every details from Observation Ward to ICU and that cold and lonely corridor to x-ray film which shown his lung full of infection. People always says that life goes on..but life goes on..surely..on a different pace now

Asthma Attack

Its a bit cold now with heavy rain this few weeks. It's a bless coz we can save electricity bill :) But the kids are sensetive to cold weather, both of them had asthma and we were stranded at Emergency Department for six hours where the observation ward was also full. Pead ward was fully occupied as well. The good thing is the environment of that asthma bay is proper and not congested with equipment unlike certain hospital.

Awana Kijal (Holiday for kids but work for me)

This is actually our overdue holiday post..it was a total holiday for them who spent 3 times at the pool and twice at the beach while I was stuck in that seminar room until midnight. We stayed at Awana Kijal for 3 days in a comfortable room with bath tub outside the bathroom..so it was perfect for them :) The journey from KL was smooth despite the first day of school holiday.

scribbling on the smooth clean beach unlike Batu Ferringhi Beach

Less crowded beach, perfect for relaxation unlike Bt Ferringhi which for me is too crowded with activities.

They really love the sand, sea and the wind..and they got what they wish for--> kepok lekor :)

PhD Journey

Life is about our journey not merely about destination..therefore I just embarked on a new journey, in academic. As a part time student that is.. I am not sure how am I going to juggle my family life, working life and studying (which will consume much more time for reading, reading and reading, writing, analyzing and bla bla bla). View from MJIIT towards UTM's new mosque..skyline of Greater Kuala Lumpur is amazing

It's not an easy journey, but I believe that Allah will lead me as He's lead me during my Master's programme..being alone with many obstacle..Alhamdulillah, my big day was last few months and here I am again, set on a new journey. As research, I chose to use my Master's topic on women's safety, I'll find the research gap and what not, expand the Literature Review (LR), download articles and journals, download whatever apps for researcher like Mendeley, read PhD blog..read PhD comics (stress medication :), read PhD facebook... I wish that I could manage my time efficiently and for that I will tawakal first and plan my journey..Amin

3rd birthday

Not a well planned birthday celebration, but we managed to make it a memorable celebration for our little princess. Families from Penang and Alor Setar were here, so its a perfect enough small event

Hope you'll become a solehah

Life is like a box of chocolate..or a fruit cake..?

Forest Gump was right..and we don't need philosophical explanation when it comes to life experience. There are many things that happen and as usual they are not as what we plan or expected. But as they says, life goes on no matter what. It's either you sink or swim and I choose to swim even though it's hard or consume more energy or facing other difficulty. There are things that should remained silent and there are things to be shared but sometimes both won't do justice.

(source:wikipedia) Fast forward, it's been a month commuting by train to KL and it wasn't something to look forward. It's 40 minutes ride with coaches pack like a sardine can and crossing the arch bridge from Bandaraya Station to Bank Negara Station is not a pleasant journey especially on rainy days when the steps are slippery and you need to mind the steps and try not to slip. And sometimes the train does not arrived on time unlike in Tokyo where they display that the train will arrive at 6.03am, and on the dot the train is in front of you. Maybe it's Malaysian time..I don't know..for now riding the train is the best option compared to driving in KL with expensive parking rate and massive jam and the longer we drive the more we contribute to carbon footprint. Due to this, more time are spend on traveling and less time for family..a dilemma of working mom

End of Academic Journey..for now..

This is the first weekend after FINAL semester and this is the end of my academic journey. Time flies really fast, and now it's no more staying up late finishing assignments, reading journals, downloading softwares etc..working in group on sustainable development...but I miss those moment. Its only two days but days without reading is meaningless.

Please ignore this messy table..our studio used to be worst than this..:)...only those who are in this line know the real meaning pf studio..(read: messy )

But I treasure the extra time that I have with the kids now. Alhamdulillah, everything are on track as blessed by HIM.

They are the happiest people when they realised that I just finished my report..and send for hardcover binding..poor kids... Treat nasi arab - lamb hanith and lamb kebab for them, its their favourite anyway..

I'm looking forward for their academic journey coz starting tommorow they'll officially start schooling session, no more transition period..that means lots of books to carry, homeworks to do for both tahfiz and Sekolah Kebangsaan...their academic session is from 7.45am until 6.30pm..what a life..i remember back then, life was easy..we went to school and back by 2pm..playing outside by 4pm..hahaa..whatever it is we'll pray for the best..

Post-ICU

“People think dreams aren't real just because they aren't made of matter, of particles. Dreams are real. But they are made of viewpoints, of images, of memories and puns and lost hopes.” --Neil Gainman I think that our mind always play trick on us. Just like the way we perceived our surrounding. Sometimes it is complicated. Our subconscious mind is even puzzling and our dreams can sometimes affect our emotion. There are times that we don't want to wake up from a good dream but sometimes we have to when it's horrible one.

Since he's been discharged from hospital, I always have a dream about him and mostly are not a good one or no bed of roses or a walk in a park kind of dream. These dreams are about him in the ICU, either the same condition or new case. I woke up feeling sad. I know that its just a dream but sometimes we need a good one too. Hopefully everything will be better when he moved here. In Sha Allah

Road to Recovery: News on Malaria

Some info from online news portal:

Road to Recovery: Emptiness

Wednesday 20/11/2013 6.45am - ICU Putrajaya Hospital People always says that waiting is a hard thing. Indeed, especially when you are alone in a cold long empty corridor and nothing else to do except looking at the vinyl floor and counting the lamp. I pray for his safety, I was confused..it happen too fast, but I need to stay calm. After subuh prayer, I don't know where to go. It was too early to leave the hospital. I never feel this way, being alone in this situation is different. Normally when he is not around, I can just carry myself and do my work as normal. But this is totally different.

There are three bags,one umbrella and one 100 plus bottle with me which I brought from ward. I left his towel and sandal and forgot about it. Too many things to carry and I left this bottle at the waiting room outside ICU and it was there for few days. It was like an indicator for whatever that I can't think of.

Road to Recovery

Life is full of colours and come in different shades, people always associates rainbow colours with happiness while shades of grey or black with darkness, sorrow and even death. I guess I'm in that grey zone now, its gloomy. We never knew what will happen until it really happen and we need to cope with it. That is what happen since last few days but if feels like everything happen too fast. Its just you are served with so many things and you can't really digest everything. He complaint about his fever since at Cheringin Resort, we thought that its a normal fever. When we met at UTM, he seems to be showing normal symptom of fever. We went to a clinic on Saturday but until Sunday his condition is still the same, high temp with vomit. We when to Emergency Department Hosp Putrajaya and was diagnosed as dengue fever, he was observed for few hours. I received a call from him at 2.30am saying that he's discharged. In a sleepy mode, I drove to Putrajaya and surprised how can they let him go just like that.

We when to KK Putrajaya the next day and was referred to Hosp Putrajaya again. By that time he was so down, in pain..It's hard seeing him like that. After almost two hours, he was admitted to Ward 4A. And the journey began from there. He can still smile, talk to me but not his usual self. He could hardly eat and drink, I spend time with him until midnight. I left the hospital with a heavy heart. But since its dengue fever, I thought that he'll be like other people. On Monday morning after the kids sent, i cook crab soup for him. Clean the house and wear a proper attire and put on my make up as he don't like seeing me messy without any make up..:) Friends were there at lunch time, he could only eat few spoons of rice and soup. After less than an hour, everything is out. It's almost like in-ou-in-out process. I know it must be really painful when you have to force things out from your stomach. His temp by then was up and down, hot and normal at interval time. He looks different, he's restless, he's not him to my eyes. His friends from HQ came and make a joke. But that wont make him happy, at that time he's like struggling inside to cover the pain.

I left at 5pm to fetch the kids. By 9pm he already sms and said 'I need u'..by that time I know that he's not in good condition. After rushing with dinner and left the kids with a heavy heart as well, I reached the hospital. His body temp was still high, I brought white towel to dab his body. He keep on vomiting and by 10pm the temp was 40 degree. Suddenly he asked me to choose one answer. I asked him which answer, he said A or B. I choose A, and he asked A is for what?...I said for Allah but he said No, its a riddle. I was a bit puzzled.

He was talking like normal again, and then he asked me to choose again A or B. He said if I solve that riddle, his stomach pain will go away. He asked me to press A, click enter button and move the cursor. I was so sad coz he seems to be confuse, actually his mind play tricks on him. I called a friend and cried, I need someone with me at that time. Family was informed about his state and they also tried to solved the so called riddle. The nurse asked him few question about the riddle, and when she asked him where he is, he said his in a forest..My heart broke at that time. I was scared...I keep on cooling down his temp, and he told to me to click on Mokhtar's answer..Ohhh it was so scared and sad looking at him in that state. Doctor came and checked, and she told me that he's confuse now due to the heat. By that time he was already given oxygen through tube. After further check up, he was transferred to Acute room and a mask was put on to help his breathing. He had difficulty breathing due to coughing. He cant just lie down or sit, every thing seems so wrong and uncomfortable. The temp was still high, the heart beat was too high and the oxygen level was decreasing. I pity him................ After around one hour:

The level of oxygen was under 90, it was a bad sign. Doctor keep on asking him to wear the mask properly or otherwise he'll be transferred to ICU alone without me. He try to used it properly but he seems so stress looking at the machine and many numbers on the screen. I old him not to look at the numbers at all. By that time his BP was increasing again and oxygen drop to 80. I was nervous as well.. By 3am: He as sweating, hardly breathing and the oxygen keep on decreasing to below 80 and NS was informed and it was a really hard situation to look at. I was informed that he need to be sent to ICU. He was like struggling..I don't know how to describe. By 4am we were already in ICU and it was a different ambiance and urgency. He was placed on another bed and while the doctor explained to me about his worrying condition, the other medical staff was cutting his orange DOSH t-shirt..I can't look at him anymore, its like cutting my heart. He need urgent rescue and he was struggling breathing..i could say that he looks a like fish..Ya Allah.... ..I was asked to wait outside..and I wait and wait and confused..guilty, sad..everything...informed family members.. I was sitting in a small waiting room...feeling alone..total loneliness... After one hour, I was called by doctors. 2 doctors with me and Dr Hisyam asked me with a serious face ..'what have i know about him'..and I told him everything that I know chronologically, about his medical history etc...AND he told me that my husband's condition was critical and its negative dengue..BUT maybe malaria or leptospirosis. I heard with calm and try to be strong..tried to digest the new and scary info. Doctor said that his chance is only 50/50 and if he survive he might have brain damage or stroke. I don't know how I feel at that time. And he asked me to call family members to visit him. ...AND the journey just BEGAN.........

Recap

What a long silence for this blog, been very busy with so many things. FB is distracting me from jotting down anything here..blame it on FB..haha Anyway, its been more than seven months from my last post. We are now at our new abode, not far from previous house. It depends on perception and experience whether its far or not, coz for those living in Klang Valley, long distance definition is different from people in Alor Setar :) 2013 started with a exam result for me..but the kids were adjusting with their new school, new environment and expectation. I notices that early education if harder now in Malaysia. The expectation and effort from teachers and parents are way much different if I compare with my time. Even a requirement to enter certain schools come with a list that looks like a resume or portfolio for job application..grrr Time changed, so does the system, expectation and standard. I hope that my kids are able to cope with all these and I need to make sure that their childhood should be full of colours, not only stuck with books and homework..:)

Quest for Lighting

This is an interesting part of moving into a new house - the shopping part, it could be daunting, overwhelming, personal...but the most important is what we want, what is our concept, what is our budget.. We have doing online browsing, but at the end of the day its better when we go and have a look of the real thing.

we went to Houses Lightings in Puchong, there are many choice at an affordable prices, but if you don't find the one that you desire, its better to wait until the new stock delivered.

..and this is from One Stop in Bangi at Jalan Reko, there are interesting looking hanging light and chandelier..but too expensive.

..these are from Houses Lightings, one month after our first visit. The important thing to consider is location of the lights, size, colours of the light either cool white or warm white, material and the length of the cable. We bought extra for the staircase hanging light due to high ceiling.

Initial Idea for ID

It was not that easy when you are in the business of design and architecture, you have so many ideas but so little budget. There are so many inspiration from the internet, books and amgazine or from previous project. But it all come down to one important aspect - Money..money..money We started off with throwing some ideas, we did not renovate since there is no more space to extend. We decided the scope of work and then find inspiration or concept.

And it started from 'resort' to 'modern'...and at one time i thought of having an 'Arabic 1001 night' concept...but now I have to think of something that looks contemporary but could blend with our existing furniture.

we went to Ikea for looking for some ideas for the kids bedroom, obviously they already knew what colour that they want for their bedroom :)

some ideas for kitchen cabinet design from Ikea and supplier..its hard to choose to colour but not the finishes since we already knew our budget. So we choose concrete top for durability and finish it with 2' x 2' tiles. Other options are solid surface and melamine but some supplier will give a different name like Maica or Miko top but actually the material is the same.