Friday Flashback

-How time flies, Sufina is already 7 months and we celebrated our 8th anniversary on the 20th Dec.



-How a small incident led to a changes in our lifestyle.

-How living apart is harder that I thought.

-How a power of mind can overshadow our body..headache, fever and the list will go on.

-How red my eye is right now..just like an apple

-How listening to Karen Carpenters is comforting...Close to you

In a flowing river

I'm just like a small fish swimming gently in a river that flows smoothly with dry leaves on it surface. Its a big river with crystal clear water with stones covered the riverbed , it was shady at some part of the bank and at some area the sun seems to seep through the leaves and branches and it was a beautiful day, just as simple as that.



Just as I thought that sun will always shine and that the river will always flow smoothly, fate has it own way..the river is not that straight anymore as I swim along, never expected that downstream is this dangerous with boulders and roots.


By then, I was just a small fish struggling to swim or sink or just let the water brought me to the wide open sea with so many possibilities. I realized that being a small fish in that kind of water is not that easy.It was not my habitat...

Since this fish left her calm river, she's trying to be an adaptable animal to suits a new environment with different things all together. The fight for survival is higher...This salt water is hard to swallow for a such small fish.

Or maybe like in any non fiction story, small fish could turn into a piranha...

Tuesday Wish

I just want to have freedom..to able to spend more time with my kids..to be able to wake up and do whatever I want without having to think of what match with my heels and handbag...and I wish for less protocol environment....

Viral fever

It's been like a roller coaster ride, there are adrenaline rush and finally there's a big relief when it stop and ready to take other riders.

I'm still on leave taking care of my lil pumpkin who's down with viral fever, it was hard at the beginning especially at night when her temperature rised and she was crying and grumpy...

She's recovering despite difficulty taking any medicine.


..with wet towel which could only last for 30 minutes on her forehead...

Roller coaster ride

I don't know how describe what my life is at the moment, three in Keah and the two of us are here in this house full of boxes, mess, hope and uncertainty.

We could only plan, but only He knows what is best..I did my solat istikharah..and I wake up with an open mind and will accept the fact that I'll be living near bendang with colours changing after few months from muddy grey to green and turned to golden precious colour...BUT it all changed the moment I went into that building.

The answer is..'NO'...*you'll be working here for one year*...it was like a slap on my stomach..(i rather burning my fat than ruin my make up )...

...sooooo....that means we go for plan D....see, I have so many plan..lets hope that this will work out and I have the strength to cope with this new life

New twist

I'm officially part of other team but under the same department, I am anxious but not excited anymore of this promotion. I knew that there will be some twist and unexpected things, but never expect that it will be this way with long wait.

As for now, the waitng game is still on....

I still don't know where my new office would be, Big Boss said that I shoul be in Penang, but the other bos said that they don't need my post..but deep down inside I just want to be together with my family in Kedah...or somewhere near.

I'm still working on something at this office, leaving for Kinabatangan tomorrow and the next day going back to Kedah for other errand for Aidiladha and will come back to Putrajaya to finish up packing our stuff and moving things to Kedah, but there are still many arrangement that need to be done for the kids.

I just want to be with my lil pumpkin...

Rindu kat Tuhan...

abah : Sufiya cakap dia rindu kat Tuhan, nak tidur dengan Tuhan..nak naik atas sana...

mama:....silent....kenapa dia cakap macam tu..?

I just wish for a good health and wherever we are, He'll be with us..Amin..

Pantai Cenang, Langkawi

If anybody ask about my favourite place to relax and do nothing except for waiting for the sunset, strolling on white sand...that will always be Langkawi

White sandy beach..





Big Sis with her pink hat..we were there for only three days but managed to spend time just playing around, making sand castles, had seafood for two nights..and no shopping spree...:-)

More photos from D90 will be upload later...

Ladang Anggur Tasik Beris

I love my job even though it s*#ks sometimes especially when dealing with people who speak the same national language but different understanding...but the best part of it is the 'sightseeing'..jalan-jalan makan angin..or maybe this time it was jalan-jalan makan anggur at Beris Lake Vineyard


It took only about 25 minutes from Pekan Sik to this place, there are facilities for fishing and chalet but under different managementNew bridge crossing the lake, there was no proper signage leading to this place. It was hot and I would only bring my kids when the weather is cloudy and we need big straw hat as well...

its a big place but only certain part of it are open for public

deoorative stone at main entrance

mosses on the pathway..beautiful green and brown combo

vineyard



Green and black...

No Company

I never agree on idea of leaving kids with parents or inlaw. I prefer to take care and face their tantrum, clean the mess that they make and such. But now, it hit me..reality hit...we are separated by work..he is in Jitra, kids in Alor Setar and here I am, technically alone with no one to talk to, no one to scream...

Its terrible..but life goes on, other people managed to face this, so I've to be strong, its just a phase (I hope).

Our house is neat and clean now..I miss their mess and clutter...
They normally left their toys around this space, sometimes they eat and big bro spills his drinks..and bread crumbs became a pattern on that red carpet :-)


Miss my little pumpkin...


...and my heart and soul....

Monday Mood :Vintage Art and Tea

I loves everything old, rustic, sentimental, romantic...be it furniture, building, photographs, my aunts colourful beads, mom's old kebaya and even buildings and cars. Sometimes its not about the value but simply because of the colour and idea that it reflect.




Vintage art found at English Tea House in Sandakan

Its gloomy here..and it will be nice if we have tea..just a simple plain tea..

..overlooking South China Sea

Tip Top Tuesday

Alhamdulillah...

It's worth the waiting and the mess in my mind..

No wonder I suddenly feels like a white feather floating and landing slowly on a smooth surface..Only He knows what's best for us..


Syukran...(big sis is keen on learning Arabic, she keep on asking me and I only knows few words- learning from Ikim.fm while driving ..:-)

Monday Mood

Hello Monday...we are counting days to many event and opportunities..and possibilities

I'm tired of thinking and planning for the next month but still things need to be done.

Don't have a good night sleep anymore..and end up sleepy at the office


I'm not scared of the unknown..I just wish for a better life, health, wealth and love

Went for check up with lil pumpkin at Klinik Kesihatan Putrajaya..she's 6.2kg now :-)

I have trouble moulding the elders..too naughty and outspoken..grrrr

Friday Flashback

Still in Raya mood even though I spent the whole two weeks holiday not just preparing for raya but attending meeting at three places , last minute shopping and also driving around Alor Setar looking for a decent house for the next maybe five years..

Here are some photos from last week pre-post raya celebration....

We left for Penang on the 24th and made few stop at RnR to rest..and by the time we reached Juru tol, it was already 7.30am..I was behind the wheel from Sg Bakap to Tg Tokong, we rest for only two hours and headed to Sik for my work...it was raining and we were tired....but at least I could finished one task before the holiday


Here's our kitchen helper, preparing ingredients for nasi tomato for Iftar

nasi tomato in a big pot

Had to finished another task before raya in Gurun and Yan..Gurun has changed a little bit
View of Gunung Jerai ..rail track project is on going


Old photo of pekan Gurun..please ignore the reflection

Big sis with her sketch , she draw everyday..its the almost the subject but loves their drawing simply because they are not perfect.

Tesco Tanjung Pinang is just few meters away from MIL's house, so went there for some last minute shopping and let the kids have fun indoor
Cosy inside tesco trolley..put on a hairclip to tell people that my lil pumpkin is a girl..tired of answering people's question :-)



We treat the kids before raya..their cousin joined us ..games and ice cream

We were in Alor Setar on the firtst Syawal, but I missed going to the old madrasah for solat,..it is just a small madrasah but the thought of meeting so many familiar faces old and young that make it special....and the weather was nice..sunny compared to wet and gloomy few days before that...


Big Bro with his cousin in Jitra..cheeky..

Open house on second day in Alor Setar..office mate from Putrajaya with her family


And we made a tour in Penang ...

We went to Gurney Plaza before visiting relatives house and lil pumpkin need a rest and it was feeding time for her.

It was a tiring two weeks holiday because we were driving back and forth..andon the 4th of Sept, we were back in Alor Setar for hubby's work..and back in Putrajaya on the 6th...

I just wish that this Syawal will bring another good news...Insyaallah

Pre Holiday

I woke up this morning and forgot about yesterday's news..I'll just take it easy for now and try to concentrate on other sweet things in life, not trying to run away from the issue but will tackle it slowly.

For now its raya mood...sooooo...lets see our checklist...

it looks like just few more things left..the rest are already packed and ready, no matter how BIG or spacious the car is, it always fully loaded :-)..and this time around we not only pack for raya but always post raya :-)

Big sis is already in raya mood..she draw this last night with scolouring set from Kakak Parvin..thank you so much



I went for last minute shopping and a treat for myself for being..being me I guess..:-)..hahaha what a reason...simply heart this whole idea of flowers and such


estee lauder sensuous nude..nice smell..and the package is flexible so I choosed that bottle..

Since I'm on traveling day, I just spent the time alone packing their bags....



Will be leaving for Penang tonight...but its not holiday yet..will be in Sik,Gurun and Yan for work...then only we could celebrate..

Tuesday Tangle

This is how it feels right now after I got the news...



I thought that its going to smooth, but that's okay, don't want to mess up my mind too much at this moment. Others have experienced it before and many times. And this is my first time...so relax and take a deep breath and enjoy this raya season first..

Anyway back on raya mood..big sis is asking for ketupat empat segi gantung...so need to inform mak tok on this special request with rendang..

Sweet Sunday (artwork)

I promised them to do some painting but had to cancel the plan due to housework and the laundry..plus lil pumpkin has started seeking for attention, she will cry when no one nearby of see her..

Even with no watercolour and brush, I let them do whatever they want as long as they are happy.Big Sis with her sketch..she wants me to count all the clouds and figures..notice that pearl bracelet..? she asked me the price..'berapa ribu..?"..main ribu-ribu ringgit jee sekarang :-)


And this is Big Bro's sketches..he's not feeling well since last night
He's better with poster colour and brush I guess..but still need to let him sketch to stimulate his fine motor skill.

And as for me..I have a plan (as always, but hope it will turn out as planned :)..will continue with art as well..soon

Saturday update

We don't have much time lately to spent the time like before, so yesterday we went to Alamanda to trim big sister's hair while abah went o find adidas shoes for big brother.

Lil pumpkin in her stroller..settled her part last week, but I'm still looking for vintage inspired dress for her


before the haircut

just one inch ....



and tadaaa...konon lil princess..she slept with that pearl bracelet last night

Childhood Memories

I miss waking up every morning and smell the fresh air and watch water droplets on daun pisang, it was s surreal moment

The soil was wet from last night downpour, and the bushes seem greener than the day before.




I miss laying down on Mak's timber house and put my feet on the window in between the steel rail and watch the sky making a formation and later interpreted it as I like.


I miss sitting on a concrete staircase at an old house not far from Mak's house. It was a big house with Malacca style staircase.




And I also miss a nice pulut sambal ...